Yesterday, I was speaking with a friend and he said people act out of fear or love and that really hit a spot in my soul. Not that it’s anything new really, it just blew my mind to fully consider that those two emotions are the strongest.
Seeing fear in others is something I personally think I’m good at picking up. I have very limited fears so when I sense others fear, I do my best to dilute theirs. I try to be as wholehearted and blunt with myself so that they feel trusting and willing to let fear go. I try to show my vulnerability to the best of my abilities. I face fear with my whole self and tell it to fuck right off because I choose to be myself in the havoc of all life. Life is too short to not be myself.
Don’t get me wrong, I get petrified from time to time but ever since I’ve let go of my ego and my limits, I am undoubtedly the person I know I am. And of course it’s getting more intense but it’s also getting easier. Funny how that works really.
And now that I know my faults and my faulty traits, I voice them and I work on them. I didn’t love parts of myself and it showed in my interactions with others. Now when I slip up or have a moment where life just gets crazy I remind myself it won’t be like this forever and to allow myself to just breath.
2/23/21 In retrospect- I am still completely flawed.
Perfectly so and I have by no means battled all of the “demons”, the ones that need my love and affection the most.
But the more honest I am with myself- the more honest I can be with the world and show my true self in its essence of love and hope to lead by example but it’s not to set the scene or be standing out intentionally, it’s more for my own benefit of feeling more free of the burdens I’ve placed on myself.
The Better ME 