Lifetimes

Tonight marks an end of a very amazing, wonderful, and crazy chapter in my life.

The past three months were one of the most fascinating yet hard months of my life. I was put through trials and tests that at times I didn’t think I could overstep but I did.

I’d be lying if I said it didn’t scare me. From day one, I was petrified. But with that fear, there was a beautiful feeling of excitement and hope. Hope that the adventure I partook on will be amazing. And boy, it was. I morphed into a new person, I have let my true self shine through the facade I was for years. I’ve done lifetimes of work in a matter of these past three months.

Today marks the end because someone very dear to my heart is going to be near me again after these three months. So the self growth I did till now is completed. That’s not to say that I won’t be growing on my own, it’s just a different world of growth.

I needed to grow alone with them afar so I could be the best for myself so I can now provide my best for him as well. I loved every second of this journey and I’m just as excited for these new beginnings. I’m ready for the change that will ensue and it will be beautiful and it will be amazing. But again, I would be lying if I said I wasn’t scared. But it’s the fear of the unknown. But the unknown is outside of the comfort zone, and we all learn and live up to our best potential by being outside of our comfort zones. So I welcome the fear alongside the excitement, joy, hope, and love. Fear just adds some thrill. I am very aware that it is irrational and so I refuse to let the fear chase away my joy.

Here’s to lifetimes of growth and joy and excitement. Cheers.

I don’t write these entries for anyone to read genuinely, it’s mostly so I can look back here after my progress but if someone does read this, thank you for investing energy to my words.