Tired

I’m tired of not having the things I want.

I’m tired of being in this place

I’m aware that me saying those things won’t change much

Only my actions will

I’m so fucking tired of sitting here

Pretending everything is okay within me

I’m exhausted with stifling myself

I’m so tired of being unhappy.

I’m tired of being bored.

The world I’m creating will bring me endless opportunity

It will bring me endless joy

I will learn with the weather and with the wind

I will keep pushing on my inner journey.

I am tired of having to numb myself

I am tired of my surroundings

I want to be around like minded people

And wholesome places

I want to be in nature I want to explore everything.

I want to befriend the trees and sing with the birds

I want to teach those who seek out knowledge on the realm that I can provide it on.

Every day is harder than the last because I recognize so much I dislike living within

It’s harder to push past those things I dislike

But I also learn a lot from feeling that way so it’s not bad, I’m just ready start actually living the life I truly want