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Feelings

Words

Emotions

Not sure how to convey

Moments of uncertainty

Within oneself

Within myself

The best way I could explain

Is just writing it

But what about when

I have absolutely no clue

What I want to write about?

Well, then I just do what I do best

Write whatever words come to mind

Which is portrayed best here

This last week was much

It was intense

It called for a lot of strength

I feel uneasy at the moment

Can’t place why

But it’s temporary

I’m just tired and I don’t have

The ambition to do any school work

This post is pointless but I need to channel myself into words or I’ll just feel like I’m stifling myself.

You’ve been in my dreams so much recently. I fall asleep thinking about your touch on my skin. I close my eyes to the imaginary sound of your laugh ringing in my ear. Images of you dance on my eyelids, like a light flickering. Words I so dearly anticipate exchanging bounce around in my skull. I await the moments where I can hold you and speak the words of my soul to yours and receive insight into your mind.

I can’t believe it’s December already and I most definitely can’t believe the amount of change that has manifested in my life since January, that’s for sure. I am baffled at the notion of recalling my past self to my current one. Reflecting on my insecurities during the earlier months of this year sends me in a tizzy. It also, however, makes me feel much lighter and alive.

This is scattered, but so am I so that’s just a portrayal of all that I am, all that I feel.

There’s lifetimes of conversations on the brink of explosion in all aspects of my life and I’m so close to releasing.